Accountability...

Accountability: The obligation to demonstrate and take responsibility for performance in light of agreed expectations. There is a difference between responsibility and accountability: responsibility is the obligation to act; accountability is the obligation to answer for an action.

This is a word in the area of my diet that I've been very lax on lately. After I had my surgery, I lost my appetite for a few weeks so I was losing weight pretty easily. Then my appetite came back and I discovered I was allergic to the peanut/tree nut family and I still continued to do pretty well until lately. You see, after my surgery I gave up all things carbonation and cut my sweet tea back to one glass a day or none at all. Crystal Light Lemonade was all I wanted until I went back to work. Because I don't drink coffee or Diet Coke's except on a rare occasion, I've taken to drinking a Rt 44 Sweet Tea cut in half from Sonic. NOT GOOD!!!!! What this does is keep me from drinking water at all because I drink on that all day! I've also gotten more relaxed on things such as chips and salsa, hamburgers, etc. Well that is no more!

Tomorrow is the first day of October and the first day of the NEW me (as if I didn't already do that 9 weeks ago) and new, healthy habits! My attitude and confidence changed a lot with my surgery and the compliments I continue to get are helping. I mean when someone says "Jordan, how much weight have you lost, you look great!", who am I to say I haven't really, I just lost my chest so I appear much thinner, so I say thanks and go on. No more! If someone compliments me for weight loss it's going to be because I'm working my butt off to lose it! I've gone off all med's (compliments of my surgery) including the Fibromyalgia one that made me start gaining. NO MORE EXCUSES! I will be walking everyday whether it be outside or inside on my treadmill. I will find some form of pilates or aerobics to do. I will be holding myself accountable on here and I ask that you do to. If you see me ask not how I am but am I holding true to the no tea or junk food (which honestly is not that big of a problem).

Also note that I'm not so much doing this to lose weight but to be healthier. I've never been one to be extremely self-conscious about my weight. It's almost become a part of me that makes me me. I'm too comfortable in my own skin I think to lose weight and draw attention to myself. I still cross my hands over my chest when I see people I haven't seen. I also am really going to hate to have to give up some of my wardrobe when I lose the weight I want too. I've already had to do some of that though and to be honest it was very hard but when it went to someone who really needed the clothes and I was told how much she loved them it made it even more worthwhile!

“Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.”