What comes next...

I met with my doctor yesterday per her request to go over what the Radiologist had to say. They have a scale that they rank lumps on of 1-5. One of course being nothing to worry about and 5 that it is a confirmed malignant tumor. I'm a 4. That I can't breathe feeling sunk in all too quickly. My next step is to get in with a surgeon so therefore on Monday afternoon I will be meeting with an Oncologist that specializes in Breast Cancer. He will decide how he wants to perform a biopsy, surgicallly or by needle. My doctor thinks that he will choose to go ahead and surgically remove them because they are both measuring at 1.5 cm and 2 cm which is by no means small when there both on the same side. I personally want them out and for this nightmare to be over. It's so so easy I think to say everything is going to be fine but your heart and emotions are in a tailspin. I feel like I cry at a drop of the hat so I'm pretty sure I've met the crying quota for the year.

Please say a prayer for me over the next few days to have the courage to handle this all in stride and the way that God wants me to. I have to believe that there's a purpose in why God is having me go thru this. I just need the strength to withstand it all.

Jordan