I had my ultrasound on Friday and it did not go as well as I had hoped. It wasn't a fluid filled cyst. It wasn't scar tissue. It's a mass that the Radiologist feels I need to have a biopsy done on soon. In his words, "I can't say its breast cancer but I can't tell you that it's not". That is a sentence that I've wasn't here typing then I might have thought my heart stopped beating at that very moment. I couldn't even speak when he asked me if I had any questions. Questions, how can you have questions when someone looks at you and says something that shakes you to the core. I don't know how I got off the table and put my clothes back on. How I walked thru the waiting room. If Angela and Brandi had not been there then I feel for sure that I couldn't have. To say that I lost it in the parking lot would be an understatement. I've always felt I could handle anything God threw at me but I feel like my world is now crumbling and will continue to do so until I know what the biopsy says.
I'm trying to remain positive and keep repeating in my head "It's nothing, It's nothing, It's nothing.". Some moments it works, some it doesn't.
Please pray that I will have peace no matter what happens. If this is the road God wants me to go down then I'm going to and I'm going to beat it. If it comes back as nothing then I will never be able to express how grateful and blessed I am.
Jordan
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I have no wise words to give you right now. I wish I did. Just know that I am praying that this is just an annoying benign tumor. Keep us updated.
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