Healing

One of the questions in our Small Group tonight was "Have you witnessed someone find joy and healing thru Christ?" (I paraphrased of course). The more I thought about the more I thought about my own life since Logan was born. I think he was my joy and healing. I've always battled endometriosis as well as ovarian cyst, from surgery to medicine to medically induced menoupauses (twice). Some people who have endo have surgery and go onto have children with no problem. Some people are never able to get pregnant without medical assistance. Some women with endo never have children. I'm in the not sure column but the you need a hysterectomy column. Not a fun spot.

You see when Logan was born I was one of the fortunate friends that got to be with Kelly when she met Logan for the first time. He wrapped his fingers around my heart when he wrapped his tiny fingers around my finger. He taught me that I could love any child as if it was my own. I think God used Logan to teach me that know that in December I would be told that a hysterectomy was recommended. He knew I needed a Logan in my life when I looked at the doctor and said God works miracles and though I felt like I had had my share of them I was still holding out for one more. Logan is one of the reasons why I can't wait to pursue adoption. Children are born into your heart and I know that there are plenty of children in the world that need someone to hold their heart and hands.

God definitly has a plan in store for my future and thinks to the love of a little boy my heart is now healed and full of joy. Those who read this blog and post words of encouragment have also healed my heart and helped in replenishing the joy! I can't wait to see what is in store and hope you are all along for the ride.


Jordan