Smile Though Your Heart is Breaking...

Smile, though your heart is aching.
Smile, even though it's breaking.
Though there are clouds in the sky,
you get by...

If you smile through your fears and sorrows.
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun come shining through.

If you just light up your face with gladness,
Hide every trace of sadness.
Although a tear may be ever, ever so near.

That's the time you must keep on trying.
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find life is worthwhile
If you'll just smile, come on and smile.

If you just smile.

This song seems to be the story of my life lately. I thought it would get easier once I made a final decision and I wasn't so lucky. It's only gotten harder. I think it's probably because the door is almost closed on a part of my life. Sometimes it's easier to smile and push through the day and tell everyone your fine because who wants to hear that you cried the whole 45 minutes it took you to get to work or that you fill like your heart is being ripped out of your chest. It's also the conversations with family members that are completly unexpected but leave you hopeful and feeling better about the decision you've made that also bring tears to your eye's. It's getting to help your sister plan her nursery that makes you smile though you know it will be a while before it's your turn to do it.

As the song says "If you smile through your fears and sorrows. Smile and maybe tomorrow you'll see the sun come shining through." I'm waiting for my sunshine to come thru which I'm sure it will. I can't wait for the day when a baby is place in my arms and will be forever mine. It's what keeps me focused on the days to come and the future God has in store for me.

Jordan